Sunday, December 6, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Goodbye.
Damn, its really been awhile since i blogged on here.
Well, this will be my last post. Number 50.
Im not gonna stop blogging, but im gonna stop blogging on blogger. I will now be on tumblr.
I feel that blogger held all my negativity. Now its time to start fresh. Tumblr is fun and its very colorful. It has a positive look and it'll now have all my positive thoughts on there.
Goodbye
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
shingeeezy.tumblr.com
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Realize.
"Monday, June 15, 2009
Happy burrrrfff (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIE ANAYA FAVY! =)
18. the big ol' 18. oh man.. i haven't known you for THAT long, but just enough to have all my trust in you. I can tell you just about anything, and you take the time to listen and understand me. You stayed with me, and helped me when i felt like giving up. You kept me going, when I wanted to surrender. You rode with me through it all. I tell you some of the things that NO ONE knows about, and you don't say a word. Yes, that means a lot to me. I have your trust, on anyting and everything. I'll never forget about you, regardless.
Our ups and downs, MAKES US STRONGER. a friendship like ours, are never perfect. the little details, is what makes it, IT.
How much can I thank you favorite? You deserve all the good things in life. Thanks, for having to deal with my shit throughtout this year. You know I'm here for you no matter what favvy. With or without a phone, ahhaha (= Please, take the time and enjoy your 18th birthday. It only comes around once, might as well live it up, drink it down! haha JAYKAY :D I promise you im not going now where, and no matter how far you'll be, as much as we don't talk, I'll always be your favvy.
You mean a lot to me. You made a difference in my life. You showed me a diff. perspective OF life. & you'll be appreciated until your last breathe. Happy birthday, Danie Anaya BKA favvvy!
" favoritos on mamas " - yours truly, fav.
PS, I still have your flower drawings and bananas! hahah :D keep up your work of art, I'm sure you'll get somewhere in life with them. You are, going to be successful Danie. Best of luck! =)
I'll support you, and you know that."
Wow. I read this just now and it hit me hard. I miss you.
We're not friends and we got problems. I fucked up. Yes, i did.
When you first put that post up, i just skimmed through it. Now, i actually read it.
I just lost something and it feels horrible to finally realize it.
Wow. FML. Im sorry.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Happy burrrrfff (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIE ANAYA FAVY! =)
18. the big ol' 18. oh man.. i haven't known you for THAT long, but just enough to have all my trust in you. I can tell you just about anything, and you take the time to listen and understand me. You stayed with me, and helped me when i felt like giving up. You kept me going, when I wanted to surrender. You rode with me through it all. I tell you some of the things that NO ONE knows about, and you don't say a word. Yes, that means a lot to me. I have your trust, on anyting and everything. I'll never forget about you, regardless.
Our ups and downs, MAKES US STRONGER. a friendship like ours, are never perfect. the little details, is what makes it, IT.
How much can I thank you favorite? You deserve all the good things in life. Thanks, for having to deal with my shit throughtout this year. You know I'm here for you no matter what favvy. With or without a phone, ahhaha (= Please, take the time and enjoy your 18th birthday. It only comes around once, might as well live it up, drink it down! haha JAYKAY :D I promise you im not going now where, and no matter how far you'll be, as much as we don't talk, I'll always be your favvy.
You mean a lot to me. You made a difference in my life. You showed me a diff. perspective OF life. & you'll be appreciated until your last breathe. Happy birthday, Danie Anaya BKA favvvy!
" favoritos on mamas " - yours truly, fav.
PS, I still have your flower drawings and bananas! hahah :D keep up your work of art, I'm sure you'll get somewhere in life with them. You are, going to be successful Danie. Best of luck! =)
I'll support you, and you know that."
Wow. I read this just now and it hit me hard. I miss you.
We're not friends and we got problems. I fucked up. Yes, i did.
When you first put that post up, i just skimmed through it. Now, i actually read it.
I just lost something and it feels horrible to finally realize it.
Wow. FML. Im sorry.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Still....
Im still hurt... I cant get over it. I wanna trust you again, but its hard...
Why'd you have to do it? Why? You lied to me about alot of things....
But...
...i love you
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Why'd you have to do it? Why? You lied to me about alot of things....
But...
...i love you
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Monday, September 14, 2009
FUCK MY TRUST.
Never in my life have i EVER been this mad at you. You frustrate me so much. I just wanted to punch a fucking wall and just scream to the whole world. Why the hell would you do such a thing? FUCK WHAT THE OTHERS SAY. You shoulda told me AT THAT VERY MOMENT. Honestly, you just made it worse by keeping it from me for hella long and not telling me right away. Things wouldve been a lil bit better if you woulda just told me right then and there. Maaaaaaaaaan, you pissed me off to a new level of pisstivity and it feels so horrible. Ive honestly NEVER been this mad before. Ive never been mad at you for anything. And now... you fuck up. You wanna keep doing those things huh? Cause it seems to me that you didnt learn from last year.
Fuck.....
I couldnt sleep last night. I couldnt eat today. I couldnt think. I couldnt speak. I couldnt do anything.
Its like my trust doesnt mean ANYTHING to you. THANKS ALOT!
But, behind all this anger, all this frustration, all this madness....
... i love you
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Fuck.....
I couldnt sleep last night. I couldnt eat today. I couldnt think. I couldnt speak. I couldnt do anything.
Its like my trust doesnt mean ANYTHING to you. THANKS ALOT!
But, behind all this anger, all this frustration, all this madness....
... i love you
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Saturday, September 5, 2009
I Just Have A 'Lil Something To Tell You....
Hey there. Yes, this is for YOU.
I just wanna say, i miss you too much. I feel so far away from you. I dont know what you've been doing or anything. I just miss you, alot. Im not mad cause you have your reasons. Its ok.
Bye.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
I just wanna say, i miss you too much. I feel so far away from you. I dont know what you've been doing or anything. I just miss you, alot. Im not mad cause you have your reasons. Its ok.
Bye.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
School.
So its been awhile since i last blogged.
Hello World.
UPDATE TIME!
So i started at a new school this year, and it sucks. (=
I hate every single day of that horrible place. I told all the teachers that im a mute....
Well, i didnt really TELL them, but i wrote it down on a piece of paper and showed it to them. Atleast i aint gots to read or present! I seriously have NO friends there. Well... i have some... but only cause of the security gaurd a.k.a. DAD.
-___-
Anyways. Im gonna try and visit pinole on fridays. Go to football games and kickit with the homies.
Back to school... My teachers are stupid. We foreal havent done ANY WORK. All they do is talk talk talk talk. SHUT THE HELL UP ALREADY AND TEACH! I swear i think im the smartest kid at that school. -____-
How pathetic is that? Me? Smartest? Chyeah... Right! Whateva.
Those who know about my head condition: I think its getting worse. (=
My head stays in pain. Thanks Supergrands.
Umm... hmm... NEXT WEDNESDAY IS MY 1 YEAR WITH MY BABY! (= (= (= (=
Im hella juiced! We're going on a date on Sept. 12th since we cant see each other on the 9th.
Damn... 1 year tho! Went by like THAT! My longest damn relationship and its been too damn amazing. I love you.
SHOUTOUTS!
God- You my homie.
Family- I love you.
GF- You the fuckin' best.
Niggas- I miss you.
Sheryl- Update me. I have a feeling you be hiding shit from me. Dont be stupid.
WORD.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Hello World.
UPDATE TIME!
So i started at a new school this year, and it sucks. (=
I hate every single day of that horrible place. I told all the teachers that im a mute....
Well, i didnt really TELL them, but i wrote it down on a piece of paper and showed it to them. Atleast i aint gots to read or present! I seriously have NO friends there. Well... i have some... but only cause of the security gaurd a.k.a. DAD.
-___-
Anyways. Im gonna try and visit pinole on fridays. Go to football games and kickit with the homies.
Back to school... My teachers are stupid. We foreal havent done ANY WORK. All they do is talk talk talk talk. SHUT THE HELL UP ALREADY AND TEACH! I swear i think im the smartest kid at that school. -____-
How pathetic is that? Me? Smartest? Chyeah... Right! Whateva.
Those who know about my head condition: I think its getting worse. (=
My head stays in pain. Thanks Supergrands.
Umm... hmm... NEXT WEDNESDAY IS MY 1 YEAR WITH MY BABY! (= (= (= (=
Im hella juiced! We're going on a date on Sept. 12th since we cant see each other on the 9th.
Damn... 1 year tho! Went by like THAT! My longest damn relationship and its been too damn amazing. I love you.
SHOUTOUTS!
God- You my homie.
Family- I love you.
GF- You the fuckin' best.
Niggas- I miss you.
Sheryl- Update me. I have a feeling you be hiding shit from me. Dont be stupid.
WORD.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Fuuuuuuck It!
Hmm... im not even gonna put alot.
Your trippin'. Get over it cause im coming back. Fix our friendship? Your doing an excellent job. SIKE!
You still talk to me like its fucking akward. What the fucking fuck? Whats your fucking deal? You said you would fucking talk to me more and meet me halfway with this shit. But you aint doing shit. Whatever.
Like foreal, think about this shit. YOU FUCKING CHANGED... and in a bad way.
- Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Your trippin'. Get over it cause im coming back. Fix our friendship? Your doing an excellent job. SIKE!
You still talk to me like its fucking akward. What the fucking fuck? Whats your fucking deal? You said you would fucking talk to me more and meet me halfway with this shit. But you aint doing shit. Whatever.
Like foreal, think about this shit. YOU FUCKING CHANGED... and in a bad way.
- Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Monday, August 10, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
You Fuckin' Goomba's.
Lets talk about some shit.
I wanna talk about Goomba's.
A.K.A. The Mothafuckas.
"Aye yo Daddy D! What the fuck is a Goomba?"
A goomba is a mothafucka thats hella fucking stupid. People that have no type of sense. Fake fucks.
Theres certain types of goomba-ass muthafuckas.
First class of Goombas:
The niggas that be like "Brehh, i gotchu. Your shits safe with me. On mommas." -___-
Nigga, shut the fuck up. Thats why you go runnin' to other people tellin' their business. Thats grimey as fuck.
"I promise you blahblahblahblah" Keep ya promises to ya damn self King Koopa. Basically, the lying ass goombas is what im speakin' about. I watch myself and watchout who my friends be. Im tryna stay around Mario and Luigi ass niggas. Not no 5-0 deep cover fuckers.
Second class of Goombas:
Playin' ass Goombas. The mothafuckas that be playin' girls like a brand new Mario game. I be hearin' shit about all these mothafuckas. They be saying "Oh baby, i love you. I always been loved you, girl. You my world. Call me daddy." -_____-
First things first nigga, IM daddy. The ONLY daddy. DADDY D! Second, shut the fuck up with your fuckin bullshit. Cause the next thing hes gonna do is make Princess Peach look like a damn fool by leaving with some stupid ass reasons like "Im tired of feeling guilty through alla this. I dont have the same feelings as before. BLAHBLAHBLAH!" Shut the fuck up. Talkin' all this head about how you love her and shit and how shes your world, then your feelings change. THERES GOTTA BE ANOTHER GIRL. If a nigga talks all this shit about saying he loves you and your his world, then the mothafucka betta take that shit to his damn grave and mean it forever. Cause shit, i know i do!
Third class of Goombas:
"Yo man! I got that shit, that shit, that shit, and that shit! But my parents dont want me showing anyone."
-_________-
Fourth class of Goombas:
"Dude, where the FUCK did you get your shirt, jeans, shoes, socks, underwear and hairstyle"
SWAGGA JACKAS! Im not even gonna lie, but black people be swagga jackin' up the ASS! Thats on some real shit. Niggas break their own necks to have someone elses swagg. WACK! Ok, yeah, i copied Brada Kevroc's ripped pocket steez, but i mean, atleast i look good with it! I mean, Niggas be copying niggas steez and look hella stupid doing it. Skaters were rockin' skinny jeans then "PUNK ROCK" Goombas come in and start wearing that shit. BUT THEY LOOK HELLA STUPID! Nigga, just keep wearing that smoke shop, crackhead-lookin, my-shirt-looks-like-a-nightgown type shit. Keep rockin' ya fake shit. Ya fuckin' goombas. I may look like every skater out on the block, but shit, ive ALWAYS been like this. Never had another steez. I WIN, YOU LOSE.
Fifth class of Goombas:
"Yeah, that bitch is HELLA ugly! I'd NEVER go out with her IN MY LIFE!" Then couple months later, you start going out with that bitch. Gabbi knows what im talking about. HA! Pathetic, worthless ass goombas. Need i explain more?
Final class of Goombas:
"FUCK YOU NIGGA! I'LL BEAT YOUR ASS BUT NOT REALLY! IMMA JUST TALK HELLA SHIT AND MAKE A SCENE AND DO HELLA MUCH SO I COULD LOOK HARD CAUSE GOD KNOWS YOU'LL BEAT MY ASS!"
You already know.
Fuck King Koopa niggas that be having lil Goombas running around.
Got any type of Goombas you want me to talk about? Let me know.
aim- Shingo be COO
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
I wanna talk about Goomba's.
A.K.A. The Mothafuckas.
"Aye yo Daddy D! What the fuck is a Goomba?"
A goomba is a mothafucka thats hella fucking stupid. People that have no type of sense. Fake fucks.
Theres certain types of goomba-ass muthafuckas.
First class of Goombas:
The niggas that be like "Brehh, i gotchu. Your shits safe with me. On mommas." -___-
Nigga, shut the fuck up. Thats why you go runnin' to other people tellin' their business. Thats grimey as fuck.
"I promise you blahblahblahblah" Keep ya promises to ya damn self King Koopa. Basically, the lying ass goombas is what im speakin' about. I watch myself and watchout who my friends be. Im tryna stay around Mario and Luigi ass niggas. Not no 5-0 deep cover fuckers.
Second class of Goombas:
Playin' ass Goombas. The mothafuckas that be playin' girls like a brand new Mario game. I be hearin' shit about all these mothafuckas. They be saying "Oh baby, i love you. I always been loved you, girl. You my world. Call me daddy." -_____-
First things first nigga, IM daddy. The ONLY daddy. DADDY D! Second, shut the fuck up with your fuckin bullshit. Cause the next thing hes gonna do is make Princess Peach look like a damn fool by leaving with some stupid ass reasons like "Im tired of feeling guilty through alla this. I dont have the same feelings as before. BLAHBLAHBLAH!" Shut the fuck up. Talkin' all this head about how you love her and shit and how shes your world, then your feelings change. THERES GOTTA BE ANOTHER GIRL. If a nigga talks all this shit about saying he loves you and your his world, then the mothafucka betta take that shit to his damn grave and mean it forever. Cause shit, i know i do!
Third class of Goombas:
"Yo man! I got that shit, that shit, that shit, and that shit! But my parents dont want me showing anyone."
-_________-
Fourth class of Goombas:
"Dude, where the FUCK did you get your shirt, jeans, shoes, socks, underwear and hairstyle"
SWAGGA JACKAS! Im not even gonna lie, but black people be swagga jackin' up the ASS! Thats on some real shit. Niggas break their own necks to have someone elses swagg. WACK! Ok, yeah, i copied Brada Kevroc's ripped pocket steez, but i mean, atleast i look good with it! I mean, Niggas be copying niggas steez and look hella stupid doing it. Skaters were rockin' skinny jeans then "PUNK ROCK" Goombas come in and start wearing that shit. BUT THEY LOOK HELLA STUPID! Nigga, just keep wearing that smoke shop, crackhead-lookin, my-shirt-looks-like-a-nightgown type shit. Keep rockin' ya fake shit. Ya fuckin' goombas. I may look like every skater out on the block, but shit, ive ALWAYS been like this. Never had another steez. I WIN, YOU LOSE.
Fifth class of Goombas:
"Yeah, that bitch is HELLA ugly! I'd NEVER go out with her IN MY LIFE!" Then couple months later, you start going out with that bitch. Gabbi knows what im talking about. HA! Pathetic, worthless ass goombas. Need i explain more?
Final class of Goombas:
"FUCK YOU NIGGA! I'LL BEAT YOUR ASS BUT NOT REALLY! IMMA JUST TALK HELLA SHIT AND MAKE A SCENE AND DO HELLA MUCH SO I COULD LOOK HARD CAUSE GOD KNOWS YOU'LL BEAT MY ASS!"
You already know.
Fuck King Koopa niggas that be having lil Goombas running around.
Got any type of Goombas you want me to talk about? Let me know.
aim- Shingo be COO
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Fuck Summer.
Thank God its almost over.
This summer was probably the worst summer of my fucking fucked up life. Like, seriously. Nothing went down. No fucking adventures. No kickits. Fuck my life. Fuck everyone whos having a great time. I dont give a fuck. Whatever.
Schools coming up. New school on my senior year? WHAAAAAAAAT?! Must be out yooooo mind. Fuck it. No friends for me. Everyday is gonna be hell. Fuck this shit. Fuck my life. Yeah im being negative. Oh fucking well. Positivity aint gonna help a god damn bit. Fuck it.
Im fucking dead.
Fuck Summer.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
This summer was probably the worst summer of my fucking fucked up life. Like, seriously. Nothing went down. No fucking adventures. No kickits. Fuck my life. Fuck everyone whos having a great time. I dont give a fuck. Whatever.
Schools coming up. New school on my senior year? WHAAAAAAAAT?! Must be out yooooo mind. Fuck it. No friends for me. Everyday is gonna be hell. Fuck this shit. Fuck my life. Yeah im being negative. Oh fucking well. Positivity aint gonna help a god damn bit. Fuck it.
Im fucking dead.
Fuck Summer.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Summer Madness.
Its summertime... i think?
I mean, we're outta school, but it doesnt feel like summer. It aint as hot. Adventures aint happening. Kickits are epic fails. Whats going on? Im just waiting for something exciting to happen this summer. Nothings happening lately.
Hmmm... idk? Someone hit me up. Im tryna make this the best summer since i aint going to PV next year.
FUCK MY LIFE.
Blogs are short now.
Waiting for....
Summer Madness.
-Shingo Anaya[YZ!]
I mean, we're outta school, but it doesnt feel like summer. It aint as hot. Adventures aint happening. Kickits are epic fails. Whats going on? Im just waiting for something exciting to happen this summer. Nothings happening lately.
Hmmm... idk? Someone hit me up. Im tryna make this the best summer since i aint going to PV next year.
FUCK MY LIFE.
Blogs are short now.
Waiting for....
Summer Madness.
-Shingo Anaya[YZ!]
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Triple A.
Accept. Adjust. Adapt.
Tuesday and Thursday nights at karate are the best. You learn a whole lot about everyone and yourself. The lectures at the end are the best. Instructor Sean and Mr. Dumlao's words help out alot. Their words are very powerful and make you realize alot about life.
Thursday after a hard workout with Mr. Dumlao's class, he gave us a lecture about this thing he made up called Triple A.
Whats Triple A?
Accept. Adjust. Adapt.
You accept a problem in your life. You figure out what you can do to make that problem positive and adjust to it. Then, you adapt and grow.Its really helpful.
Let me tell you my Triple A:
#1
I accept the fact that im 18 now and i need to grow up and start acting like an adult. I need to adjust by knowing that adults have fun too but they have a limit. I'll adapt by being a leader and being a role model to the teens and kids of our world. Showing them whats right from wrond and whats wrong from right. I'll adapt by growing up and being a man.
#2
I accept the fact that ive been a red belt for about 6 years and i havent done anything to achieve my goal of being a black belt in my martial arts life. I need to adjust by going to class more. Get back in shape. Help around the studio more. Be a positive role model to our young lil warriors. I'll adapt by testing for my brown belt when im ready and move closer to getting my black belt.
#3
I accepted the fact that you and i have been through tons of stress. Im adjusting by showing you that you can trust me and love me with all your heart again. Im gonna be the best man for you cause i know i am and i'll show you. I'll adapt by earning your trust and love and we'll be what we were before but 10000000000000000 million times greater and stronger.
Whats YOUR Triple A? Let me know please.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
I Need You...
Hello world.
First, i'd like to say, RIP Michael Jackson.
NEXT!
So... this summer, idk? Its coo i guess. Im missing you more and more everyday. We BARELY talk throughout the day. I know i got summer school, but who gives a fuck? Its summer school. You dont talk to me like you used to. Our conversations last for like... 6 texts. Then you dont text back. Sorry if im not interesting. You dont call me throughout the day like you used to. I understand your working and such, but, i just miss you and want you here. Sometimes, your just not there....
I dont mean to like hella complain and shit, but i miss the attention you would give me. That girlfriend attention. Now, its like im not getting that attention. I miss you. It feels like i havent seen you in forever. Feels like i havent talked to you in days. Please dont tell me to get off the phone cause im tired. I DONT care about my sleep. I just wanna talk to you. But you dont understand that...
Its summer vacation and i thought i'd be talking to you like, all the time. I guess thats not true...
It seems to me that we talked way more during the school year. I feel like im going to bore you....
9 months, 2 weeks, 2 days. The best days of my life. I need you in my life. Thats the straight up truth. Dont let go of me. I need you in my life. Especially now in my time of need. My health isnt how it was... Its worse and i just need you here. Sometimes, your just not there....
I really dont mean to complain, i really dont...
I just want things to be the same. Im missing you more and more each and everyday....
I Need You...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
First, i'd like to say, RIP Michael Jackson.
NEXT!
So... this summer, idk? Its coo i guess. Im missing you more and more everyday. We BARELY talk throughout the day. I know i got summer school, but who gives a fuck? Its summer school. You dont talk to me like you used to. Our conversations last for like... 6 texts. Then you dont text back. Sorry if im not interesting. You dont call me throughout the day like you used to. I understand your working and such, but, i just miss you and want you here. Sometimes, your just not there....
I dont mean to like hella complain and shit, but i miss the attention you would give me. That girlfriend attention. Now, its like im not getting that attention. I miss you. It feels like i havent seen you in forever. Feels like i havent talked to you in days. Please dont tell me to get off the phone cause im tired. I DONT care about my sleep. I just wanna talk to you. But you dont understand that...
Its summer vacation and i thought i'd be talking to you like, all the time. I guess thats not true...
It seems to me that we talked way more during the school year. I feel like im going to bore you....
9 months, 2 weeks, 2 days. The best days of my life. I need you in my life. Thats the straight up truth. Dont let go of me. I need you in my life. Especially now in my time of need. My health isnt how it was... Its worse and i just need you here. Sometimes, your just not there....
I really dont mean to complain, i really dont...
I just want things to be the same. Im missing you more and more each and everyday....
I Need You...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Monday, June 22, 2009
Confused.
Im 18. Im a man now. But, how should i be acting? I dont know how a grown man is supposed to act.
When i think about growing up, i think about ALWAYS being serious and not having fun. Thats one reason why i dont wanna grow up. But im supposed to. I wanna change my mind set and my attitude to become a better person and become a man. But then again, i just wanna have all the childish fun thats irreplacable. Idk? Its confusing for me. What am i supposed to do and how am i supposed to act?
"...with all my heart."
Im not gonna lie, it still hurts. Sure, our conversations went back to normal, but what about YOUR feelings? I mean, i understand we were going through ALOT the past couple of weeks. But... idk? Its really hard to explain.
"Do you love me?"
"I love you like you love me."
Really? Do you? With all your heart? Idk...
I love you. You are my everything. Thats from the deep deep bottom of my heart. Thats the truth. Your the best.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
When i think about growing up, i think about ALWAYS being serious and not having fun. Thats one reason why i dont wanna grow up. But im supposed to. I wanna change my mind set and my attitude to become a better person and become a man. But then again, i just wanna have all the childish fun thats irreplacable. Idk? Its confusing for me. What am i supposed to do and how am i supposed to act?
"...with all my heart."
Im not gonna lie, it still hurts. Sure, our conversations went back to normal, but what about YOUR feelings? I mean, i understand we were going through ALOT the past couple of weeks. But... idk? Its really hard to explain.
"Do you love me?"
"I love you like you love me."
Really? Do you? With all your heart? Idk...
I love you. You are my everything. Thats from the deep deep bottom of my heart. Thats the truth. Your the best.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Catching Up.
YOOOOOOOO! Sup muthafuckas! Its been awhile since ive been on, due to the fact of my internet hella shutting down and shit. Whatevs. Lets do some Catching Up.
Soooo... IM 18! YEEEEEEEEEE! Monday, June 15th. My muthafuckin day! Woke up. Decided to go to Pastors house to go on some adventures. But they couldnt go out. Soo... i just kicked it with Pastor, Ashlar, QJ and LA! Yee! Theyre all hella cool and chill. Buffalo came by later and we went all the way to Tara Hills. He wanted to see someone. Went back to Pastors, then went home. Got ready and my fam took me out to eat at ELEPHANT BAR for my 18th bday. Went back home, slept.
Tuesday, June 16th. Woke up. Went to Pastors again. Hung out with Pastor, Ashlar, QJ and LA. QJ and Ashlar fought. It was quite amazing. Watched movies. Ate chicken nuggets. Yum. Went home, ate, went to karate, got my hip all types of fucked up again. Yeah, yeah.
Now, lets talk about just life in general. So... things with us are pretty much back to normal now... kinda. I know it bothers you and you know what? It bothers me too... Im sorry. Im just glad its not our main topic anymore. The past couple of weeks have been really hectic and frustrating and stressful. I wasnt able to sleep or anything. But, now, we're fine. We cant get over everything, but we're doing our best to stay positive. I love you and you know that. Thats all i gots to say.
So thats pretty much it. Todays my bday dinner with friends. NO DRAMA.
And im out.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Soooo... IM 18! YEEEEEEEEEE! Monday, June 15th. My muthafuckin day! Woke up. Decided to go to Pastors house to go on some adventures. But they couldnt go out. Soo... i just kicked it with Pastor, Ashlar, QJ and LA! Yee! Theyre all hella cool and chill. Buffalo came by later and we went all the way to Tara Hills. He wanted to see someone. Went back to Pastors, then went home. Got ready and my fam took me out to eat at ELEPHANT BAR for my 18th bday. Went back home, slept.
Tuesday, June 16th. Woke up. Went to Pastors again. Hung out with Pastor, Ashlar, QJ and LA. QJ and Ashlar fought. It was quite amazing. Watched movies. Ate chicken nuggets. Yum. Went home, ate, went to karate, got my hip all types of fucked up again. Yeah, yeah.
Now, lets talk about just life in general. So... things with us are pretty much back to normal now... kinda. I know it bothers you and you know what? It bothers me too... Im sorry. Im just glad its not our main topic anymore. The past couple of weeks have been really hectic and frustrating and stressful. I wasnt able to sleep or anything. But, now, we're fine. We cant get over everything, but we're doing our best to stay positive. I love you and you know that. Thats all i gots to say.
So thats pretty much it. Todays my bday dinner with friends. NO DRAMA.
And im out.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Like The Clouds...
Hallo.
So, things lately have been... ehh.
Lock? Bitch please. No one needs to be put on lock here. Fuck you, hoe. Your just fucking jealous. Its all good tho. You flat face ass bitch.
"...with all my heart..."
Its different. We barely talk through the day. Things arent like they were. I just wanna go back to feeling happy. Making fun of peoples laughs. Singing and all the other good stuff. I still feel the same. What about you? Things are hard. But, im not giving up on you. You'll always be safe with me. Dont let go of me. Keep me safe. I'll protect you from anything and anyone. You can trust me with everything. And ive been doing nothing but making sure of it. I tell you EVERYTHING. I dont hide anything from you and i would never. I love you with all my heart. I love you in a way that NO ONE can understand but us. I just want us to be happy and normal again. Thats it.
What we talked about 2 nights ago... hurt. I couldnt stand it. I cried. I was speechless...
I love you... WITH ALL MY HEART...
Like The Clouds... i can feel things drifting...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
So, things lately have been... ehh.
Lock? Bitch please. No one needs to be put on lock here. Fuck you, hoe. Your just fucking jealous. Its all good tho. You flat face ass bitch.
"...with all my heart..."
Its different. We barely talk through the day. Things arent like they were. I just wanna go back to feeling happy. Making fun of peoples laughs. Singing and all the other good stuff. I still feel the same. What about you? Things are hard. But, im not giving up on you. You'll always be safe with me. Dont let go of me. Keep me safe. I'll protect you from anything and anyone. You can trust me with everything. And ive been doing nothing but making sure of it. I tell you EVERYTHING. I dont hide anything from you and i would never. I love you with all my heart. I love you in a way that NO ONE can understand but us. I just want us to be happy and normal again. Thats it.
What we talked about 2 nights ago... hurt. I couldnt stand it. I cried. I was speechless...
I love you... WITH ALL MY HEART...
Like The Clouds... i can feel things drifting...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Friday, June 5, 2009
An Early Goodbye?
Struck by lightning.
Not really. Just some horrible news...
A year? Wow. The WHOLE year. Im just gonna warn the people over that if you TRY talking to me... I am totally gonna kill our conversation. You people dont matter to me. When the greatest day of ANY teenagers life comes, im not gonna be happy. It'll be the WORST day of my life. I wont smile. I wont be happy. I just wanna get what i need to get then bounce out, go home, sleep.
Dear friends, im sorry. I fucked up. Always have. I could NEVER make things great for my own good....
Im not gonna tell you guys. You'll find out on your own.
Fuck My Life. I seriously hate what i did to myself. I need to get away.
Maybe this is An Early Goodbye?
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Not really. Just some horrible news...
A year? Wow. The WHOLE year. Im just gonna warn the people over that if you TRY talking to me... I am totally gonna kill our conversation. You people dont matter to me. When the greatest day of ANY teenagers life comes, im not gonna be happy. It'll be the WORST day of my life. I wont smile. I wont be happy. I just wanna get what i need to get then bounce out, go home, sleep.
Dear friends, im sorry. I fucked up. Always have. I could NEVER make things great for my own good....
Im not gonna tell you guys. You'll find out on your own.
Fuck My Life. I seriously hate what i did to myself. I need to get away.
Maybe this is An Early Goodbye?
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Here We Go Again...
I dont know what to do...
Im weak...
Its 1000000 against the world, STILL. I thought all this bullshit would be done with, but then it comes back outta hell. Im trying so hard to fight. Im doing all that i can. You have that one suggestion, but thats not me to talk to the source. I really dont know what to do... These past couple of days were good. Everything went back to normal....
This is hard... REALLY hard.
Im doing everything i can do. I just want you to believe me. Thats it. Forget what others say. THEY'RE ALL JEALOUS. A bunch of haters. Ok, yeah, people wouldnt go out their way to just tell you something like this. But then again, people have no lives. So yeah, people WOULD go out their way just to lie and ruin someone else's sunshine.
Look, im really doing my best. I stressed about this every damn day when it happened. Some of that stress is still in me and now most of the stress has came back. I dont wanna stress anymore, i dont want you to stress either. So just believe me. Forget what everyone says cause i would NEVER lie to you! I'd kill myself before i ever lied to you. Thats the straight up truth and thats from the bottom of my heart. Cause when i tell you i love you with all my heart, i mean it with all my heart. NO ONE, and i mean NO ONE, can EVER make me feel this way if they ever tried or wished upon a star or wished it from a genie or wished at 11:11. Thats 100000000000000000000000000000000% real. Your my first, my last, my EVERYTHING. Your everything i want and need.
Just... dont give up on us....
God, help me... help us...
Here We Go Again...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Im weak...
Its 1000000 against the world, STILL. I thought all this bullshit would be done with, but then it comes back outta hell. Im trying so hard to fight. Im doing all that i can. You have that one suggestion, but thats not me to talk to the source. I really dont know what to do... These past couple of days were good. Everything went back to normal....
This is hard... REALLY hard.
Im doing everything i can do. I just want you to believe me. Thats it. Forget what others say. THEY'RE ALL JEALOUS. A bunch of haters. Ok, yeah, people wouldnt go out their way to just tell you something like this. But then again, people have no lives. So yeah, people WOULD go out their way just to lie and ruin someone else's sunshine.
Look, im really doing my best. I stressed about this every damn day when it happened. Some of that stress is still in me and now most of the stress has came back. I dont wanna stress anymore, i dont want you to stress either. So just believe me. Forget what everyone says cause i would NEVER lie to you! I'd kill myself before i ever lied to you. Thats the straight up truth and thats from the bottom of my heart. Cause when i tell you i love you with all my heart, i mean it with all my heart. NO ONE, and i mean NO ONE, can EVER make me feel this way if they ever tried or wished upon a star or wished it from a genie or wished at 11:11. Thats 100000000000000000000000000000000% real. Your my first, my last, my EVERYTHING. Your everything i want and need.
Just... dont give up on us....
God, help me... help us...
Here We Go Again...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Friday, May 22, 2009
...Changed...
The past couple of days have been hectic for us. We've been stressing over things. For a day, i didnt eat, sleep, drink, talk. All that was running through my mind was "FML! FML! FML!"
This shit sucked. I couldnt stand it. But i didnt wanna give up on us. I cant give up on us. I dont ever wanna give up on something too precious and a love too beautiful. Giving up was the last thing in my mind, and it was getting closer and closer to it. It was me against the lying world. I tried so hard to keep you. Im still trying my hardest. Im scared, literally. I wouldnt want you to leave over someones lies. Ive been stressing about this since the day it first came up. Im starting to stress again.
The thing im scared of the most is our relationship changing...
It already seems like it. We're barely talking about anything besides this subject. Our talks arent the same. You dont respond to me like you did. Everything is topsy-turvey and it sucks...
I dont know what to do...
Im hurting...
Im stressing...
Im scared...
I love you with all my heart. I'll keep you safe til forever. I dont EVER wanna hurt you. You CAN trust me.
I dont know why people lie. I dont know you people, but you have NO lives. Thanks.
This relationship is soon to be...
...Changed...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
This shit sucked. I couldnt stand it. But i didnt wanna give up on us. I cant give up on us. I dont ever wanna give up on something too precious and a love too beautiful. Giving up was the last thing in my mind, and it was getting closer and closer to it. It was me against the lying world. I tried so hard to keep you. Im still trying my hardest. Im scared, literally. I wouldnt want you to leave over someones lies. Ive been stressing about this since the day it first came up. Im starting to stress again.
The thing im scared of the most is our relationship changing...
It already seems like it. We're barely talking about anything besides this subject. Our talks arent the same. You dont respond to me like you did. Everything is topsy-turvey and it sucks...
I dont know what to do...
Im hurting...
Im stressing...
Im scared...
I love you with all my heart. I'll keep you safe til forever. I dont EVER wanna hurt you. You CAN trust me.
I dont know why people lie. I dont know you people, but you have NO lives. Thanks.
This relationship is soon to be...
...Changed...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Oregon.
So im back from Oregon. It was cool over there, but there aint SHIT to do over there. Like, foreal. I didnt even stay in Oregon. The tournament was in Vancouver, Washington. But whatever. So i went to this mall and it was in Portland and it was pretty cool. It had an ice skating rink in it. But you know what? I DIDNT BUY ANYTHING. -____-
What the fuck is MY problem? Haha.
So anyways, i got there on a friday and we just checked into our room and went STRAIGHT to the hot tub. That shit was relaxing. Then i napped cause i had to fight that day. So i woke up and went to go register and weigh in. I weighed in and i was fucking OVER WEIGHT. FUUUUUUCK! So i went to the fitness center to lose 4 pounds and i took hella shits. So i ended up weighing 119 pounds so i lost like... 6 pounds. YEE! Made weight. Warmed up. Fought and got FIRST PLACE. Im a boss. Then i just chilled and watched other people fight. Then i went out to eat at BJ's. Yumm yumm yumm.
Saturday. We woke up HELLA late. The room was messy as FUCK. We got ready and got all our shit and checked out. So we went down to the tournament and i chilled and everyone else fought. Everyone did good. After, we went to that mall. Rowell was tryna get at hella girls. Hahahaha. It was hella funny. Then we went to hotel again to watch the night time show but Mario, Rowell, and I decided to just get a drink and start driving around Portland. They got some Captain Morgan. We went to Portland and we was just driving around and shit. We went to downtown and shit was bootsie. Portland sucks ass. Everything closes at 8. Are you fucking serious? Whatever. So we went around and Rowell started talking to this girl named Yazmeen. Then we left. We went back to the hotel. Mario drank. Rowell smoked his blunts. HAH. I wrestled this buff 12 year old named Chris Dasalla. HAHAHAHAHA. Naw, hes like 24 and looks like a kid. But hes my nigga and i made him tap out. So the show was over and we just decided to come back home.
Im home. Back to faggots, fake people, bitches, wanna be's, and negativity. Yay? -___-
Btw, Happy Mothers Day.
"Not an imitator just a crowd motivator"
Get on my level sluts.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
What the fuck is MY problem? Haha.
So anyways, i got there on a friday and we just checked into our room and went STRAIGHT to the hot tub. That shit was relaxing. Then i napped cause i had to fight that day. So i woke up and went to go register and weigh in. I weighed in and i was fucking OVER WEIGHT. FUUUUUUCK! So i went to the fitness center to lose 4 pounds and i took hella shits. So i ended up weighing 119 pounds so i lost like... 6 pounds. YEE! Made weight. Warmed up. Fought and got FIRST PLACE. Im a boss. Then i just chilled and watched other people fight. Then i went out to eat at BJ's. Yumm yumm yumm.
Saturday. We woke up HELLA late. The room was messy as FUCK. We got ready and got all our shit and checked out. So we went down to the tournament and i chilled and everyone else fought. Everyone did good. After, we went to that mall. Rowell was tryna get at hella girls. Hahahaha. It was hella funny. Then we went to hotel again to watch the night time show but Mario, Rowell, and I decided to just get a drink and start driving around Portland. They got some Captain Morgan. We went to Portland and we was just driving around and shit. We went to downtown and shit was bootsie. Portland sucks ass. Everything closes at 8. Are you fucking serious? Whatever. So we went around and Rowell started talking to this girl named Yazmeen. Then we left. We went back to the hotel. Mario drank. Rowell smoked his blunts. HAH. I wrestled this buff 12 year old named Chris Dasalla. HAHAHAHAHA. Naw, hes like 24 and looks like a kid. But hes my nigga and i made him tap out. So the show was over and we just decided to come back home.
Im home. Back to faggots, fake people, bitches, wanna be's, and negativity. Yay? -___-
Btw, Happy Mothers Day.
"Not an imitator just a crowd motivator"
Get on my level sluts.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Shoutouts.
Shoutouts to my real ass niggas.
The whole YZ! fam. We aint NEVER dead. You 3 are the realist of the real and i couldnt ask for a better crew.
Nick Martinez! You my boy and i got yo back NO MATTER WHAT. If niggas wanna run up, then its CURTAINS for them.
My nigga Sheryl. Your hella funny and entertain me through the day.
BFF Gabbi. Your always there and keeping me going through the hard shit. You foreal are the best. No doubt about it.
Family. I finally opened up to you guys and ya'll had my back. Thanks yo!
GIRLFRIEND. Do i really need to say something about this beautiful creation the Lord himself created? I love you, baby.
The whole YZ! fam. We aint NEVER dead. You 3 are the realist of the real and i couldnt ask for a better crew.
Nick Martinez! You my boy and i got yo back NO MATTER WHAT. If niggas wanna run up, then its CURTAINS for them.
My nigga Sheryl. Your hella funny and entertain me through the day.
BFF Gabbi. Your always there and keeping me going through the hard shit. You foreal are the best. No doubt about it.
Family. I finally opened up to you guys and ya'll had my back. Thanks yo!
GIRLFRIEND. Do i really need to say something about this beautiful creation the Lord himself created? I love you, baby.
Monday, May 4, 2009
My Adventure.
Damn, what a day today. So i got to school at 640-ish and left at 720. Who does that? A BOSS LIKE ME! DUH!
Anyways, so i left school to go to my GF's house and i skated ALL THE WAY TO RODEO FROM PINOLE. All cause i love the fuck outta my girlfriend.
So i took the back roads of pinole and hercules. All that shit was easy. I was just scared cause i didnt want anyone from karate to see me and snitch on me. So i got to GF's around 830-ish and we just chilled and cuddled and talked.
I left her house around 245. I started skating up by Victoria By The Bay and i saw SEAN and i started RUNNING! Its a good thing he didnt see me. So i stayed there for like... 15 minutes tryna see if Lora or Anthony can pick me up and take me to Fernandez....
So they couldnt... -___-
I headed across the street to these town houses/apartments thangs and headed towards this gate and i hopped it and landed in this big ass grass field. I didnt wanna take the main road cause i was HELLA paranoid. So i headed towards Bio-Rad and skated down this hill and it was DRIZZLING and i was all dirty cause of the grassy field and shit. I came to a dead end and saw this trail and i thought if i can take it, i'll head towards the Hercules Waterfront. But no... it just lead me to HELLA water. So i was like FUCK IT! IMMA TAKE THE MAIN ROAD.
So i took the main road and made a right on this street heading towards the waterfront. Got there and everything else was pretty easy.
It took me HELLA long to get home. Shit was cuuuuhhhhraaaaaaaaazy! But i was glad i got to hangout with my GF for the WHOLE DAY. I love you Baby.
My Adventure.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Anyways, so i left school to go to my GF's house and i skated ALL THE WAY TO RODEO FROM PINOLE. All cause i love the fuck outta my girlfriend.
So i took the back roads of pinole and hercules. All that shit was easy. I was just scared cause i didnt want anyone from karate to see me and snitch on me. So i got to GF's around 830-ish and we just chilled and cuddled and talked.
I left her house around 245. I started skating up by Victoria By The Bay and i saw SEAN and i started RUNNING! Its a good thing he didnt see me. So i stayed there for like... 15 minutes tryna see if Lora or Anthony can pick me up and take me to Fernandez....
So they couldnt... -___-
I headed across the street to these town houses/apartments thangs and headed towards this gate and i hopped it and landed in this big ass grass field. I didnt wanna take the main road cause i was HELLA paranoid. So i headed towards Bio-Rad and skated down this hill and it was DRIZZLING and i was all dirty cause of the grassy field and shit. I came to a dead end and saw this trail and i thought if i can take it, i'll head towards the Hercules Waterfront. But no... it just lead me to HELLA water. So i was like FUCK IT! IMMA TAKE THE MAIN ROAD.
So i took the main road and made a right on this street heading towards the waterfront. Got there and everything else was pretty easy.
It took me HELLA long to get home. Shit was cuuuuhhhhraaaaaaaaazy! But i was glad i got to hangout with my GF for the WHOLE DAY. I love you Baby.
My Adventure.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Thats My Weekend.
Im kinda liking the rain right now. The gloomy weather makes me happy.
Anyways, Pac-Man won yesterday. Now lets celebrate with Halo Halo and Sinigang. (=
Friday, school was pretty cool. School is pretty cool everyday. I have REAL friends for the first time. Thank God i threw the trash out. Hmmm... So friday, i guess i got blamed for throwing Ryan Pastors shoe in the toilet. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA! WHOEVER DID IT, GOOD SHIT YO! That was hella funny. And why was Buffalo tryna interrogate me through text saying "yeah, its pretty funny how only me, rodney, you, alberto, and pastor know the combo." It is funny. Too bad i didnt do it. I wouldve done something WORSE. Trust me. I could careless tho.
Anyways, after school, i went to karate, worked out then went home.
Saturday, Pacquiao fight. Went to Sunvalley Mall first. Got some new shoes. Then went to True East and got a new shirt. Then i went to my Auntie Nanda's house. We chilled, ate, played this game they play in Beer Fest. That shit was smackin. Played video games. WE DID KARAOKE! Im hella raw! I got a 97 on "6, 8, 12" by Brian McKnight. I got vocals for days. Thats pretty much what i did Saturday.
Thats my weekend.
I guess imma just stay in doors today.
Life is great. Im on top of the world. People need to get on MY level cause they're still being immature. I love life.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Anyways, Pac-Man won yesterday. Now lets celebrate with Halo Halo and Sinigang. (=
Friday, school was pretty cool. School is pretty cool everyday. I have REAL friends for the first time. Thank God i threw the trash out. Hmmm... So friday, i guess i got blamed for throwing Ryan Pastors shoe in the toilet. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA! WHOEVER DID IT, GOOD SHIT YO! That was hella funny. And why was Buffalo tryna interrogate me through text saying "yeah, its pretty funny how only me, rodney, you, alberto, and pastor know the combo." It is funny. Too bad i didnt do it. I wouldve done something WORSE. Trust me. I could careless tho.
Anyways, after school, i went to karate, worked out then went home.
Saturday, Pacquiao fight. Went to Sunvalley Mall first. Got some new shoes. Then went to True East and got a new shirt. Then i went to my Auntie Nanda's house. We chilled, ate, played this game they play in Beer Fest. That shit was smackin. Played video games. WE DID KARAOKE! Im hella raw! I got a 97 on "6, 8, 12" by Brian McKnight. I got vocals for days. Thats pretty much what i did Saturday.
Thats my weekend.
I guess imma just stay in doors today.
Life is great. Im on top of the world. People need to get on MY level cause they're still being immature. I love life.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Excellence.
So lately, my life has made a big ass u-turn, and its amazing. Life couldnt get any better. Its like, the sun is brighter and the clouds are getting clearer. I do my best to stay as positive as i can and i HAVE been staying positive. Like, nothings been bringing me down at all. Im a better person. No room for negativity. "FUCK THE BULLSHIT!" Huh Rodney? Thats the shit. Like, all the nagativity is finally gone. Yes (=
NEXT!
Anyways, today was pretty chill. I liked today, for some odd reason. At lunch, in the 400's, i brought my ipod dock and speakers and the speakers fucking SLAP! Like, the vibe was hella better. No nagative energy was in the 400's and if there was any negative people there, then the music would flushed them out. Im an excellent music man. No doubt about it.
Hmmmm.... yeah, thats pretty much it.
My life=Excellence.
Btw, i post blogs like a crazy person (;
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
NEXT!
Anyways, today was pretty chill. I liked today, for some odd reason. At lunch, in the 400's, i brought my ipod dock and speakers and the speakers fucking SLAP! Like, the vibe was hella better. No nagative energy was in the 400's and if there was any negative people there, then the music would flushed them out. Im an excellent music man. No doubt about it.
Hmmmm.... yeah, thats pretty much it.
My life=Excellence.
Btw, i post blogs like a crazy person (;
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Monday, April 27, 2009
"Just Live Your Life."
So i was walking to 3rd period today and i saw Austin. I said wassup and shit, and then Nick came. Austin left, then me and Nick just started chattin' it up. Shit was coo. We were supposed to go to 3rd period, but we were talking the whole time and we just skipped and talked instead. We hella opened up to each other and it fealt really good (no homo), but it was cool and hella chill. Now, me and Nick dont talk much, but when we do, we open up and we just start talking about everything. He's truly my nigga fa' life. I learned alot just from talking to him.
No matter what, just live your life and never be scared. Just have fun cause you only live once. I also learned that if your life is going downhill, think about whats making it go downhill and drop it. For example, me. I fealt that i had hella stress on me and i realized ONE PERSON was making me have this stress. So what did i do? I dropped that person. We aint friends no more and it feels sooooo good. I feel replenished, ya know?
Nick really opened up to me and it wasnt uncomfortable AT ALL. It was good. He dropped some knowledge on me for life. I really just realized how good life is and how good i have it. My life is amazing. I have my niggas. I have my Dumlao Fam. I have my Girlfriend. These people make my life shine and make me happy. They help me through everything. Im fuckin' blessed yo!
Now, one thing i mosdef wanna do is, confess. I wanna go to church and just confess and feel revived. I already feel good just opening up to my gf and all my niggas, but i wanna feel better by opening up to God and confessing my sins. I may not be baptised or anything, but i believe in Catholic beliefs.
So overall, life is simply amazing. I couldnt ask for a better life. Im sooooo blessed and its amazing. Im done with bullshit, stress, and drama. Just let me get school out the way. Haha.
Shoutouts to my nigga Nick (Nikko) Martinez. You opened up to me and i opened to you. You made me realize hella shit from what you were saying today and what you said through your blog. Your an amazing friend and my nigga. I got you back no matter what! Thanks bro!
Another shoutout to the YELLZO! Family. Rod, Josie, Alyssa. Sure we only have 4 people, but i'd rather have 4 of my closest friends in it than anyone else. Especially those fags. YZ! is going to the top and we finsta be living STOOPID LARGE!
Big shoutout to Dumlao's Martial Arts. You guys made me into the young man i am and the man i'll be in a couple of months. Without you guys, id really be dead... You guys are my family and no matter how much drama happens in the studio, your all still my family and i love you guys all.
The biggest shoutout of all to my ever so loving girlfriend, Nicole De La Rosa. She's been there for me ever since our first talk on the phone. You help me through all my troubles and comfort me when i need it. You helped me appreciate life. You opened my eyes to "Love". I love you so much and im sooo thankful to have you in my life. Your there for me and im ALWAYS gonna be there for you. Thank you, cupcake. I love you with all my heart.
"Just Live Your Life"
Huh, Nick?
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
No matter what, just live your life and never be scared. Just have fun cause you only live once. I also learned that if your life is going downhill, think about whats making it go downhill and drop it. For example, me. I fealt that i had hella stress on me and i realized ONE PERSON was making me have this stress. So what did i do? I dropped that person. We aint friends no more and it feels sooooo good. I feel replenished, ya know?
Nick really opened up to me and it wasnt uncomfortable AT ALL. It was good. He dropped some knowledge on me for life. I really just realized how good life is and how good i have it. My life is amazing. I have my niggas. I have my Dumlao Fam. I have my Girlfriend. These people make my life shine and make me happy. They help me through everything. Im fuckin' blessed yo!
Now, one thing i mosdef wanna do is, confess. I wanna go to church and just confess and feel revived. I already feel good just opening up to my gf and all my niggas, but i wanna feel better by opening up to God and confessing my sins. I may not be baptised or anything, but i believe in Catholic beliefs.
So overall, life is simply amazing. I couldnt ask for a better life. Im sooooo blessed and its amazing. Im done with bullshit, stress, and drama. Just let me get school out the way. Haha.
Shoutouts to my nigga Nick (Nikko) Martinez. You opened up to me and i opened to you. You made me realize hella shit from what you were saying today and what you said through your blog. Your an amazing friend and my nigga. I got you back no matter what! Thanks bro!
Another shoutout to the YELLZO! Family. Rod, Josie, Alyssa. Sure we only have 4 people, but i'd rather have 4 of my closest friends in it than anyone else. Especially those fags. YZ! is going to the top and we finsta be living STOOPID LARGE!
Big shoutout to Dumlao's Martial Arts. You guys made me into the young man i am and the man i'll be in a couple of months. Without you guys, id really be dead... You guys are my family and no matter how much drama happens in the studio, your all still my family and i love you guys all.
The biggest shoutout of all to my ever so loving girlfriend, Nicole De La Rosa. She's been there for me ever since our first talk on the phone. You help me through all my troubles and comfort me when i need it. You helped me appreciate life. You opened my eyes to "Love". I love you so much and im sooo thankful to have you in my life. Your there for me and im ALWAYS gonna be there for you. Thank you, cupcake. I love you with all my heart.
"Just Live Your Life"
Huh, Nick?
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Jr. Prom
Crackin as fuck.
"Why were you fucking crying?"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Huh Rodney?
That shit was fucking HILARIOUS.
Other than the bullshit, prom night was smackin'.
Busted the hammock tho on my gf. She didnt know what the hell to do. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
*COUGH COUGH*
Some bitch is rude. HAHAHAHAHA! Its all good cause she dont matter to ANYONE.
Imma stick her one day tho.
Damn, lets replay prom night all over again.
Jr. Prom
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
"Why were you fucking crying?"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Huh Rodney?
That shit was fucking HILARIOUS.
Other than the bullshit, prom night was smackin'.
Busted the hammock tho on my gf. She didnt know what the hell to do. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
*COUGH COUGH*
Some bitch is rude. HAHAHAHAHA! Its all good cause she dont matter to ANYONE.
Imma stick her one day tho.
Damn, lets replay prom night all over again.
Jr. Prom
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I Couldnt Continue...
Gruesome...
Horrible...
I Couldnt Continue...
So i killed myself...
Goodbye..
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Horrible...
I Couldnt Continue...
So i killed myself...
Goodbye..
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
The Third Layer...
Blood...
Fire...
Death...
Demons...
Hung Bodies...
I watched a demon devour a young child...
Gruesome...
Horrible...
Terrifying...
I believe its too disguisting to explain.
Anstache; City of Scabs
Horrible, horrible city...
I threw up blood.
Goodbye.
The Third Layer...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Fire...
Death...
Demons...
Hung Bodies...
I watched a demon devour a young child...
Gruesome...
Horrible...
Terrifying...
I believe its too disguisting to explain.
Anstache; City of Scabs
Horrible, horrible city...
I threw up blood.
Goodbye.
The Third Layer...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Before We Move On...
Whats going on?
Why am i here?
What has dragged me to the blood-filled land of Hell?
I thought it was a dream, until i pinched myself. The smell, sound, vison, taste, touch is all real.
Blood is everywhere. I hear the screeching cries of humans being brought to this vile land.
Burning bodies running around. Demons eating off the flesh of live humans as if it was a all-you-can-eat dinner.
I fealt as if i was brought to this land for a reason...
...But what is that reason?
I hear a woman cry to me...
"The Lower Plains..." she says.
What does that mean?
Its a sign...
I must know why im here, Before We Move On...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Why am i here?
What has dragged me to the blood-filled land of Hell?
I thought it was a dream, until i pinched myself. The smell, sound, vison, taste, touch is all real.
Blood is everywhere. I hear the screeching cries of humans being brought to this vile land.
Burning bodies running around. Demons eating off the flesh of live humans as if it was a all-you-can-eat dinner.
I fealt as if i was brought to this land for a reason...
...But what is that reason?
I hear a woman cry to me...
"The Lower Plains..." she says.
What does that mean?
Its a sign...
I must know why im here, Before We Move On...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Saturday, April 11, 2009
The Second Layer...
Thpassed the dark valley of dead bodies, burning villages, and puddles of blood.
Im walking towards the edge of a cliff and slip.
Im going down a rapid of blood.
I land.
I get up. I see a dark forest in front of me. I have no where else to go but inside the dark forest.
I walk through and hear noises. Noises of demonic-like creatures and their battlecries.
Horrific...
I find a dead body with a sword piercing through its chest. I take out the sword and keep it.
I still hear the noises. Sounds of ravage animals tearing bodies limb by limb.
I keep my sword on guard, ready to attack any demon coming at me.
I hear the demons coming...
I run...
SLAM! A dead body hanging from a tree. Blood dripping down.
I throw up...
Why am i here? What has caused me to come to this vile land?
God...
I hear a demon charging at me...
Im ready to attack.
It pounces, i slash.
Dead demon...
I turn around and start to run.
I hear more beats charging towards me.
Im running a 4.0 on the football field. The defender cant catch me. Im too fast...
TRIP! Something grabs my leg...
A demon. Grabs me with one of his tentacles and opens his mouth. Tons of teeth and a few skulls between his teeth.
Im about to die. This demon has scary black eyes. Blacker than that disguisting bitch from my school. It begins to drop me lower and lower to his mouth.
SWISH!
An arrow goes through its tentacle. Cuts it. I fall on the ground and im safe...
SLASH! SLASH! SLASH!
The monster is on the florr dripping with blood.
Its dead.
The black figure that saved me at the village.
I ask for help..
"RUN!" he says.
More demons are coming. He prepares to attack. I go by his side, ready to fight with him.
Here they come...
They pounce and charge and jump at us. We slash towards them and give them all the attacking power we have.
We're slicing, dicing, killing any demon in sight. He has his arrows and swords and i have my sword.
Theyre dead....
We're done...
I turn around..
Hes gone...
I head towards my regular direction. Hoping to get out this demon-infested forest.
Im walking. Feels like ive been walking for days, maybe even weeks.
I collapse...
I get up and see fresh water. I drink it. Its refreshing. I keep walking and see the end of the forest.
Finally...
I see a long bridge. I walk towards it.
A sign...
Anstache
The Third Layer
City of Scabs
What could that mean?
I begin my path towards Anstache, The Third Layer....
The Second Layer...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Im walking towards the edge of a cliff and slip.
Im going down a rapid of blood.
I land.
I get up. I see a dark forest in front of me. I have no where else to go but inside the dark forest.
I walk through and hear noises. Noises of demonic-like creatures and their battlecries.
Horrific...
I find a dead body with a sword piercing through its chest. I take out the sword and keep it.
I still hear the noises. Sounds of ravage animals tearing bodies limb by limb.
I keep my sword on guard, ready to attack any demon coming at me.
I hear the demons coming...
I run...
SLAM! A dead body hanging from a tree. Blood dripping down.
I throw up...
Why am i here? What has caused me to come to this vile land?
God...
I hear a demon charging at me...
Im ready to attack.
It pounces, i slash.
Dead demon...
I turn around and start to run.
I hear more beats charging towards me.
Im running a 4.0 on the football field. The defender cant catch me. Im too fast...
TRIP! Something grabs my leg...
A demon. Grabs me with one of his tentacles and opens his mouth. Tons of teeth and a few skulls between his teeth.
Im about to die. This demon has scary black eyes. Blacker than that disguisting bitch from my school. It begins to drop me lower and lower to his mouth.
SWISH!
An arrow goes through its tentacle. Cuts it. I fall on the ground and im safe...
SLASH! SLASH! SLASH!
The monster is on the florr dripping with blood.
Its dead.
The black figure that saved me at the village.
I ask for help..
"RUN!" he says.
More demons are coming. He prepares to attack. I go by his side, ready to fight with him.
Here they come...
They pounce and charge and jump at us. We slash towards them and give them all the attacking power we have.
We're slicing, dicing, killing any demon in sight. He has his arrows and swords and i have my sword.
Theyre dead....
We're done...
I turn around..
Hes gone...
I head towards my regular direction. Hoping to get out this demon-infested forest.
Im walking. Feels like ive been walking for days, maybe even weeks.
I collapse...
I get up and see fresh water. I drink it. Its refreshing. I keep walking and see the end of the forest.
Finally...
I see a long bridge. I walk towards it.
A sign...
Anstache
The Third Layer
City of Scabs
What could that mean?
I begin my path towards Anstache, The Third Layer....
The Second Layer...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Friday, April 10, 2009
The First Layer...
I wake up...
Im lost...
I get up, look around. Red skies. Skulls on the floor. Smells like a slaughter house. Dead fields.
Where am i? I walk through the valley and look over a hill. Nothing is to be found...
I walk and walk til i see 2 mountains. They create a thin narrow path in between them.
I hear noises... screams... cries for help.
I walked through the path and the noises get louder. I start to run and i think to myself; "i should help them..."
I come to the end of the path. Im on a cliff. I see a village burning. I hear the cries of women and children.
What am i to do?
I try to climb down the mountain when all of a sudden a creature digs its nails into my shoulders, picks me up, and drops me in the middle of the village.
Fire is EVERYWHERE. I look around and see red creatures. Creatures ive NEVER seen before in my life.
They had swords and spears. Killing any villager in sight, eating the women and children, slaughtering them...
One spots me. Charges towards me with his sword held up high.
Im scared...
BOOM!
I open my eyes and see an arrow piercing through the creatures head.
All the other creatures run.
I look behind me and a black figure disappears...
Who was it?
I look back at the dead creature. What is this?
Demon...
I thought about it.. Looked around again..
Red skies?
Smell of blood and dead bodies?
Demons?
Im in hell...
I look across an open valley...
The First Layer...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Im lost...
I get up, look around. Red skies. Skulls on the floor. Smells like a slaughter house. Dead fields.
Where am i? I walk through the valley and look over a hill. Nothing is to be found...
I walk and walk til i see 2 mountains. They create a thin narrow path in between them.
I hear noises... screams... cries for help.
I walked through the path and the noises get louder. I start to run and i think to myself; "i should help them..."
I come to the end of the path. Im on a cliff. I see a village burning. I hear the cries of women and children.
What am i to do?
I try to climb down the mountain when all of a sudden a creature digs its nails into my shoulders, picks me up, and drops me in the middle of the village.
Fire is EVERYWHERE. I look around and see red creatures. Creatures ive NEVER seen before in my life.
They had swords and spears. Killing any villager in sight, eating the women and children, slaughtering them...
One spots me. Charges towards me with his sword held up high.
Im scared...
BOOM!
I open my eyes and see an arrow piercing through the creatures head.
All the other creatures run.
I look behind me and a black figure disappears...
Who was it?
I look back at the dead creature. What is this?
Demon...
I thought about it.. Looked around again..
Red skies?
Smell of blood and dead bodies?
Demons?
Im in hell...
I look across an open valley...
The First Layer...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
The Inferno...
The madness thats been shadowing us all along has finally come to take over...
The Inferno...
Hell has been broken loose on this whole world and demons have been rising from the 9th layer to do what Satan has commanded them to do...
Its all a trip...
Anyways, wsup yo?!
Been some time since i been on this g-thang.
Life..
Life has been.... ok, i guess. Still going through family issues but doing my best to fight through and overcome what God throws at me. I do feel like im becoming a better person.
School..
School is a zoo. Its hectic with all the fighting and shit we been going through. THE SHIT TALKERS! Thats who its about. Theyre Satans personal gaurds coming to destroy us all. Oh well, i can care less about any of them. Grades are... ehh... getting there. Im doing my best, you can say.
Friends..
Friends are always amazing. Support, Love, Shit. Yeah, they be coo' sometimes, most of the time. Hahaha. I drop friends, get better ones. Thats the whole friend process, right? Im pretty much done with ex-friends and theyre shenanigans. Life is better without you guys anyways.
Girlfriend..
Simply, the best. I love you.
Madness Madness Madness... The Inferno is consuming our body, letting us be those who we arent and should never be. The way the demons react are in ways we should never react. Reacting in ridiculous ways known to man as the Devil. You are the devil, yes you are. You hate God with your heart. The Inferno has taken over you, its been taken over you for sometime. Now, go away somewhere far, again, to where no one will miss you, cause no one ever has. Just burn your negative Devil self and dont ever return. No one will care for you. Youve been consumed by The Inferno, and now, you must die...
-Shingo Anaya[YZ!]
The Inferno...
Hell has been broken loose on this whole world and demons have been rising from the 9th layer to do what Satan has commanded them to do...
Its all a trip...
Anyways, wsup yo?!
Been some time since i been on this g-thang.
Life..
Life has been.... ok, i guess. Still going through family issues but doing my best to fight through and overcome what God throws at me. I do feel like im becoming a better person.
School..
School is a zoo. Its hectic with all the fighting and shit we been going through. THE SHIT TALKERS! Thats who its about. Theyre Satans personal gaurds coming to destroy us all. Oh well, i can care less about any of them. Grades are... ehh... getting there. Im doing my best, you can say.
Friends..
Friends are always amazing. Support, Love, Shit. Yeah, they be coo' sometimes, most of the time. Hahaha. I drop friends, get better ones. Thats the whole friend process, right? Im pretty much done with ex-friends and theyre shenanigans. Life is better without you guys anyways.
Girlfriend..
Simply, the best. I love you.
Madness Madness Madness... The Inferno is consuming our body, letting us be those who we arent and should never be. The way the demons react are in ways we should never react. Reacting in ridiculous ways known to man as the Devil. You are the devil, yes you are. You hate God with your heart. The Inferno has taken over you, its been taken over you for sometime. Now, go away somewhere far, again, to where no one will miss you, cause no one ever has. Just burn your negative Devil self and dont ever return. No one will care for you. Youve been consumed by The Inferno, and now, you must die...
-Shingo Anaya[YZ!]
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Irritation And Impatience...
I really dont know what it is... but ive been feeling really impatient lately. I can agree with my girlfriend and say that im one of the most patient people in this whole world. But when i start losing my patience, then its ALL bad. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!
Certain people just irritate me soooooo much.
For example:
I had this really close friend. She always needed help and i was ALWAYS there for her. I would move all my problems out the way just to help her out. And when i need her help the most, shes NO WHERE to be found. WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?! I asked for help a couple of times, and no response. I'd ask to talk to her at lunch, she didnt show up. Are you fucking serious? You were one of my best friends. Someone i can tell everything and anything to. I helped you out with every problem, and now i dont get anything in return? I just ask for you to be there when i need it. Ok, cool, live your own life, THATS FINE. But when it comes to being a friend and being there for that one dude whos helped you out with hella problems in your life and helped you overcome many obstacles, your no where to be found. I really thought this was a great friendship and i really thought you would be there for me whenever i needed help. I dont even know if i can trust you now. You just seeked my help and left without helping me out. I really moved all my problems out the way just to help you out...
That shit just really makes me impatient and irritated. Even think about it makes me impatient and irritated.
What the fuck is really going on in my life? I just wanna move somewhere far away and get away, no lie.Or maybe just move to the city and stay there. This is so annoying and life is at its worse at the moment. You dont even know. I put a fake smile on everyday just so i wont have to pass any negative energy.
Irritation And Impatience...
...tired of it.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Certain people just irritate me soooooo much.
For example:
I had this really close friend. She always needed help and i was ALWAYS there for her. I would move all my problems out the way just to help her out. And when i need her help the most, shes NO WHERE to be found. WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?! I asked for help a couple of times, and no response. I'd ask to talk to her at lunch, she didnt show up. Are you fucking serious? You were one of my best friends. Someone i can tell everything and anything to. I helped you out with every problem, and now i dont get anything in return? I just ask for you to be there when i need it. Ok, cool, live your own life, THATS FINE. But when it comes to being a friend and being there for that one dude whos helped you out with hella problems in your life and helped you overcome many obstacles, your no where to be found. I really thought this was a great friendship and i really thought you would be there for me whenever i needed help. I dont even know if i can trust you now. You just seeked my help and left without helping me out. I really moved all my problems out the way just to help you out...
That shit just really makes me impatient and irritated. Even think about it makes me impatient and irritated.
What the fuck is really going on in my life? I just wanna move somewhere far away and get away, no lie.Or maybe just move to the city and stay there. This is so annoying and life is at its worse at the moment. You dont even know. I put a fake smile on everyday just so i wont have to pass any negative energy.
Irritation And Impatience...
...tired of it.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Saturday, February 21, 2009
I Need To Quit...
Im a fuck up. I do stupid shit and act hella stupid. I really never realized all the dumb ass shit i did until now. It bugs me. I can finally see why my parents get on my ass and say how im not ready for shit and that im never ready to grow up and act mature. I finally see that I AM irresponsible. It bugs me. I hate it. Im starting to hate myself. I really do need to change. I cant keep living my life in my way and do things the way i want it to be. I need to be more responsible. Im gonna turn my life around. I need to stop being the person i am and become someone better. It bugs the fuck outta me with what i do. I need my own time and gain patience for myself and just need to think about the things i do and stop doing that shit and make my life better. I dont wanna be stressed out anymore. I dont want my parents naggin' to me about all of this. I Need To Quit....
My life will turn around in 3... 2... 1...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
My life will turn around in 3... 2... 1...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
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