Here We Go Again...

I dont know what to do...
Im weak...
Its 1000000 against the world, STILL. I thought all this bullshit would be done with, but then it comes back outta hell. Im trying so hard to fight. Im doing all that i can. You have that one suggestion, but thats not me to talk to the source. I really dont know what to do... These past couple of days were good. Everything went back to normal....




This is hard... REALLY hard.

Im doing everything i can do. I just want you to believe me. Thats it. Forget what others say. THEY'RE ALL JEALOUS. A bunch of haters. Ok, yeah, people wouldnt go out their way to just tell you something like this. But then again, people have no lives. So yeah, people WOULD go out their way just to lie and ruin someone else's sunshine.




Look, im really doing my best. I stressed about this every damn day when it happened. Some of that stress is still in me and now most of the stress has came back. I dont wanna stress anymore, i dont want you to stress either. So just believe me. Forget what everyone says cause i would NEVER lie to you! I'd kill myself before i ever lied to you. Thats the straight up truth and thats from the bottom of my heart. Cause when i tell you i love you with all my heart, i mean it with all my heart. NO ONE, and i mean NO ONE, can EVER make me feel this way if they ever tried or wished upon a star or wished it from a genie or wished at 11:11. Thats 100000000000000000000000000000000% real. Your my first, my last, my EVERYTHING. Your everything i want and need.




Just... dont give up on us....





God, help me... help us...







Here We Go Again...




-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]

...Changed...

The past couple of days have been hectic for us. We've been stressing over things. For a day, i didnt eat, sleep, drink, talk. All that was running through my mind was "FML! FML! FML!"
This shit sucked. I couldnt stand it. But i didnt wanna give up on us. I cant give up on us. I dont ever wanna give up on something too precious and a love too beautiful. Giving up was the last thing in my mind, and it was getting closer and closer to it. It was me against the lying world. I tried so hard to keep you. Im still trying my hardest. Im scared, literally. I wouldnt want you to leave over someones lies. Ive been stressing about this since the day it first came up. Im starting to stress again.


The thing im scared of the most is our relationship changing...
It already seems like it. We're barely talking about anything besides this subject. Our talks arent the same. You dont respond to me like you did. Everything is topsy-turvey and it sucks...










I dont know what to do...
Im hurting...
Im stressing...
Im scared...


I love you with all my heart. I'll keep you safe til forever. I dont EVER wanna hurt you. You CAN trust me.





I dont know why people lie. I dont know you people, but you have NO lives. Thanks.








This relationship is soon to be...



...Changed...


-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]

FML

Literally...

Oregon.

So im back from Oregon. It was cool over there, but there aint SHIT to do over there. Like, foreal. I didnt even stay in Oregon. The tournament was in Vancouver, Washington. But whatever. So i went to this mall and it was in Portland and it was pretty cool. It had an ice skating rink in it. But you know what? I DIDNT BUY ANYTHING. -____-
What the fuck is MY problem? Haha.


So anyways, i got there on a friday and we just checked into our room and went STRAIGHT to the hot tub. That shit was relaxing. Then i napped cause i had to fight that day. So i woke up and went to go register and weigh in. I weighed in and i was fucking OVER WEIGHT. FUUUUUUCK! So i went to the fitness center to lose 4 pounds and i took hella shits. So i ended up weighing 119 pounds so i lost like... 6 pounds. YEE! Made weight. Warmed up. Fought and got FIRST PLACE. Im a boss. Then i just chilled and watched other people fight. Then i went out to eat at BJ's. Yumm yumm yumm.


Saturday. We woke up HELLA late. The room was messy as FUCK. We got ready and got all our shit and checked out. So we went down to the tournament and i chilled and everyone else fought. Everyone did good. After, we went to that mall. Rowell was tryna get at hella girls. Hahahaha. It was hella funny. Then we went to hotel again to watch the night time show but Mario, Rowell, and I decided to just get a drink and start driving around Portland. They got some Captain Morgan. We went to Portland and we was just driving around and shit. We went to downtown and shit was bootsie. Portland sucks ass. Everything closes at 8. Are you fucking serious? Whatever. So we went around and Rowell started talking to this girl named Yazmeen. Then we left. We went back to the hotel. Mario drank. Rowell smoked his blunts. HAH. I wrestled this buff 12 year old named Chris Dasalla. HAHAHAHAHA. Naw, hes like 24 and looks like a kid. But hes my nigga and i made him tap out. So the show was over and we just decided to come back home.


Im home. Back to faggots, fake people, bitches, wanna be's, and negativity. Yay? -___-


Btw, Happy Mothers Day.



"Not an imitator just a crowd motivator"
Get on my level sluts.



-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]

Shoutouts.

Shoutouts to my real ass niggas.

The whole YZ! fam. We aint NEVER dead. You 3 are the realist of the real and i couldnt ask for a better crew.

Nick Martinez! You my boy and i got yo back NO MATTER WHAT. If niggas wanna run up, then its CURTAINS for them.

My nigga Sheryl. Your hella funny and entertain me through the day.

BFF Gabbi. Your always there and keeping me going through the hard shit. You foreal are the best. No doubt about it.

Family. I finally opened up to you guys and ya'll had my back. Thanks yo!

GIRLFRIEND. Do i really need to say something about this beautiful creation the Lord himself created? I love you, baby.

My Adventure.

Damn, what a day today. So i got to school at 640-ish and left at 720. Who does that? A BOSS LIKE ME! DUH!
Anyways, so i left school to go to my GF's house and i skated ALL THE WAY TO RODEO FROM PINOLE. All cause i love the fuck outta my girlfriend.

So i took the back roads of pinole and hercules. All that shit was easy. I was just scared cause i didnt want anyone from karate to see me and snitch on me. So i got to GF's around 830-ish and we just chilled and cuddled and talked.

I left her house around 245. I started skating up by Victoria By The Bay and i saw SEAN and i started RUNNING! Its a good thing he didnt see me. So i stayed there for like... 15 minutes tryna see if Lora or Anthony can pick me up and take me to Fernandez....
So they couldnt... -___-

I headed across the street to these town houses/apartments thangs and headed towards this gate and i hopped it and landed in this big ass grass field. I didnt wanna take the main road cause i was HELLA paranoid. So i headed towards Bio-Rad and skated down this hill and it was DRIZZLING and i was all dirty cause of the grassy field and shit. I came to a dead end and saw this trail and i thought if i can take it, i'll head towards the Hercules Waterfront. But no... it just lead me to HELLA water. So i was like FUCK IT! IMMA TAKE THE MAIN ROAD.


So i took the main road and made a right on this street heading towards the waterfront. Got there and everything else was pretty easy.


It took me HELLA long to get home. Shit was cuuuuhhhhraaaaaaaaazy! But i was glad i got to hangout with my GF for the WHOLE DAY. I love you Baby.


My Adventure.


-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]

Thats My Weekend.

Im kinda liking the rain right now. The gloomy weather makes me happy.
Anyways, Pac-Man won yesterday. Now lets celebrate with Halo Halo and Sinigang. (=


Friday, school was pretty cool. School is pretty cool everyday. I have REAL friends for the first time. Thank God i threw the trash out. Hmmm... So friday, i guess i got blamed for throwing Ryan Pastors shoe in the toilet. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA! WHOEVER DID IT, GOOD SHIT YO! That was hella funny. And why was Buffalo tryna interrogate me through text saying "yeah, its pretty funny how only me, rodney, you, alberto, and pastor know the combo." It is funny. Too bad i didnt do it. I wouldve done something WORSE. Trust me. I could careless tho.
Anyways, after school, i went to karate, worked out then went home.

Saturday, Pacquiao fight. Went to Sunvalley Mall first. Got some new shoes. Then went to True East and got a new shirt. Then i went to my Auntie Nanda's house. We chilled, ate, played this game they play in Beer Fest. That shit was smackin. Played video games. WE DID KARAOKE! Im hella raw! I got a 97 on "6, 8, 12" by Brian McKnight. I got vocals for days. Thats pretty much what i did Saturday.

Thats my weekend.
I guess imma just stay in doors today.


Life is great. Im on top of the world. People need to get on MY level cause they're still being immature. I love life.


-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]