Im a fuck up. I do stupid shit and act hella stupid. I really never realized all the dumb ass shit i did until now. It bugs me. I can finally see why my parents get on my ass and say how im not ready for shit and that im never ready to grow up and act mature. I finally see that I AM irresponsible. It bugs me. I hate it. Im starting to hate myself. I really do need to change. I cant keep living my life in my way and do things the way i want it to be. I need to be more responsible. Im gonna turn my life around. I need to stop being the person i am and become someone better. It bugs the fuck outta me with what i do. I need my own time and gain patience for myself and just need to think about the things i do and stop doing that shit and make my life better. I dont wanna be stressed out anymore. I dont want my parents naggin' to me about all of this. I Need To Quit....
My life will turn around in 3... 2... 1...
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
Stress Stress Stress...
Wow, havent been on this for quite some time. Hmmmmm... well, things lately have been PRETTY hectic. Ya know? Its junior year and i gotta buckle down on my school work and get to it. Stress stress stress is the main word to use here.
School, Karate & Dad...
Well, school is such a pain in the ass. You dont even know. My Dad is all saying "your not gonna make it with the lifestyle your living!" Nigga, my life is ALL GOOOOOOD. Its just the damn school thats stressing me out. And the shit my dad says, it hurts DEEP inside. Its basically VERBAL CHILD ABUSE. Man.... i literally cried a couple nights ago cause of how stressful everything is getting. He wants me to test for my brown belt and keep going with karate. But he doesnt realize how badly i DONT wanna do karate anymore. NO ONE realizes it. Ugh! Ive had ENOUGH with karate already. It made me into the person i am and i thank it soooo much for everything its done for me, but, i wanna go on with my own life and get away from it.
Friends...
SOME friends be stressing me out toooooo! I THOUGHT i had a friend who i can ALWAYS run to and ask for some advice and she'd ALWAYS be there for me and help me through EVERYTHING i needed help on. But now, i TRY looking for her and her guidance, but shes NO WHERE to be found. And its saddening cause we used to be SOOOOO CLOSE. She seemed like an older sister, but shes younger than me. Shes very mature, but it seems as if shes too mature to help me out in my time of need. I text her, but she BARELY replies back. I just want our REGULAR friendship to be back. I miss her.... )=
Other people...
Some fucking people are sooooooo fucking... UGH! STUPID! Theres some bitches that think theyre the fucking shit and think theyre fucking mature, when in reality, THEYRE IMMATURE. Fucking sluts. They wanna be soooooooooo cool and think theyre HELLA cool. Bitch, you AINT shit! You'll hate someone one day and talk shit about them, then the next day, your all up in their face saying "HI! OMG! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!" CUT THE FUCKING MALARKY! Just fucking be real. I dont even bother to deal with them fucking bitches anymore. Its just a walk by and walk away and not notice your bitchassness. Slut.
Sane...
When all this shit is going down and im feeling like shit, i take a step back, breathe, and think about the thangs that make me sane. Things like; drawing, sports, music, clothes, shopping, video games, adobo, cars, YELLZO!, and the most important thing that keeps me sane: my girlfriend.
GIRLFRIEND! Ah yes! The oh so lovely Nicole De La Rosa. When things start getting tough, i run to her and she calms me down. She picks me up and tells me to keep going and to NEVER stop. Motivation. I love it oh soooo much! Thanks Baby! I love you!
Stress Stress Stress...
It is what it is.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
School, Karate & Dad...
Well, school is such a pain in the ass. You dont even know. My Dad is all saying "your not gonna make it with the lifestyle your living!" Nigga, my life is ALL GOOOOOOD. Its just the damn school thats stressing me out. And the shit my dad says, it hurts DEEP inside. Its basically VERBAL CHILD ABUSE. Man.... i literally cried a couple nights ago cause of how stressful everything is getting. He wants me to test for my brown belt and keep going with karate. But he doesnt realize how badly i DONT wanna do karate anymore. NO ONE realizes it. Ugh! Ive had ENOUGH with karate already. It made me into the person i am and i thank it soooo much for everything its done for me, but, i wanna go on with my own life and get away from it.
Friends...
SOME friends be stressing me out toooooo! I THOUGHT i had a friend who i can ALWAYS run to and ask for some advice and she'd ALWAYS be there for me and help me through EVERYTHING i needed help on. But now, i TRY looking for her and her guidance, but shes NO WHERE to be found. And its saddening cause we used to be SOOOOO CLOSE. She seemed like an older sister, but shes younger than me. Shes very mature, but it seems as if shes too mature to help me out in my time of need. I text her, but she BARELY replies back. I just want our REGULAR friendship to be back. I miss her.... )=
Other people...
Some fucking people are sooooooo fucking... UGH! STUPID! Theres some bitches that think theyre the fucking shit and think theyre fucking mature, when in reality, THEYRE IMMATURE. Fucking sluts. They wanna be soooooooooo cool and think theyre HELLA cool. Bitch, you AINT shit! You'll hate someone one day and talk shit about them, then the next day, your all up in their face saying "HI! OMG! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!" CUT THE FUCKING MALARKY! Just fucking be real. I dont even bother to deal with them fucking bitches anymore. Its just a walk by and walk away and not notice your bitchassness. Slut.
Sane...
When all this shit is going down and im feeling like shit, i take a step back, breathe, and think about the thangs that make me sane. Things like; drawing, sports, music, clothes, shopping, video games, adobo, cars, YELLZO!, and the most important thing that keeps me sane: my girlfriend.
GIRLFRIEND! Ah yes! The oh so lovely Nicole De La Rosa. When things start getting tough, i run to her and she calms me down. She picks me up and tells me to keep going and to NEVER stop. Motivation. I love it oh soooo much! Thanks Baby! I love you!
Stress Stress Stress...
It is what it is.
-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]
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