Sometimes, i just want people to understand me.

Goodbye.

Damn, its really been awhile since i blogged on here.

Well, this will be my last post. Number 50.

Im not gonna stop blogging, but im gonna stop blogging on blogger. I will now be on tumblr.

I feel that blogger held all my negativity. Now its time to start fresh. Tumblr is fun and its very colorful. It has a positive look and it'll now have all my positive thoughts on there.

Goodbye

-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]

shingeeezy.tumblr.com

Realize.

"Monday, June 15, 2009

Happy burrrrfff (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIE ANAYA FAVY! =)
18. the big ol' 18. oh man.. i haven't known you for THAT long, but just enough to have all my trust in you. I can tell you just about anything, and you take the time to listen and understand me. You stayed with me, and helped me when i felt like giving up. You kept me going, when I wanted to surrender. You rode with me through it all. I tell you some of the things that NO ONE knows about, and you don't say a word. Yes, that means a lot to me. I have your trust, on anyting and everything. I'll never forget about you, regardless.
Our ups and downs, MAKES US STRONGER. a friendship like ours, are never perfect. the little details, is what makes it, IT.
How much can I thank you favorite? You deserve all the good things in life. Thanks, for having to deal with my shit throughtout this year. You know I'm here for you no matter what favvy. With or without a phone, ahhaha (= Please, take the time and enjoy your 18th birthday. It only comes around once, might as well live it up, drink it down! haha JAYKAY :D I promise you im not going now where, and no matter how far you'll be, as much as we don't talk, I'll always be your favvy.
You mean a lot to me. You made a difference in my life. You showed me a diff. perspective OF life. & you'll be appreciated until your last breathe. Happy birthday, Danie Anaya BKA favvvy!
" favoritos on mamas " - yours truly, fav.
PS, I still have your flower drawings and bananas! hahah :D keep up your work of art, I'm sure you'll get somewhere in life with them. You are, going to be successful Danie. Best of luck! =)
I'll support you, and you know that."






Wow. I read this just now and it hit me hard. I miss you.
We're not friends and we got problems. I fucked up. Yes, i did.
When you first put that post up, i just skimmed through it. Now, i actually read it.
I just lost something and it feels horrible to finally realize it.
Wow. FML. Im sorry.



-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]

Still....

Im still hurt... I cant get over it. I wanna trust you again, but its hard...


Why'd you have to do it? Why? You lied to me about alot of things....

But...

...i love you

-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]

FUCK MY TRUST.

Never in my life have i EVER been this mad at you. You frustrate me so much. I just wanted to punch a fucking wall and just scream to the whole world. Why the hell would you do such a thing? FUCK WHAT THE OTHERS SAY. You shoulda told me AT THAT VERY MOMENT. Honestly, you just made it worse by keeping it from me for hella long and not telling me right away. Things wouldve been a lil bit better if you woulda just told me right then and there. Maaaaaaaaaan, you pissed me off to a new level of pisstivity and it feels so horrible. Ive honestly NEVER been this mad before. Ive never been mad at you for anything. And now... you fuck up. You wanna keep doing those things huh? Cause it seems to me that you didnt learn from last year.



Fuck.....

I couldnt sleep last night. I couldnt eat today. I couldnt think. I couldnt speak. I couldnt do anything.
Its like my trust doesnt mean ANYTHING to you. THANKS ALOT!





But, behind all this anger, all this frustration, all this madness....

... i love you

-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]

I Just Have A 'Lil Something To Tell You....

Hey there. Yes, this is for YOU.


I just wanna say, i miss you too much. I feel so far away from you. I dont know what you've been doing or anything. I just miss you, alot. Im not mad cause you have your reasons. Its ok.


Bye.



-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]

School.

So its been awhile since i last blogged.
Hello World.


UPDATE TIME!

So i started at a new school this year, and it sucks. (=
I hate every single day of that horrible place. I told all the teachers that im a mute....
Well, i didnt really TELL them, but i wrote it down on a piece of paper and showed it to them. Atleast i aint gots to read or present! I seriously have NO friends there. Well... i have some... but only cause of the security gaurd a.k.a. DAD.
-___-



Anyways. Im gonna try and visit pinole on fridays. Go to football games and kickit with the homies.


Back to school... My teachers are stupid. We foreal havent done ANY WORK. All they do is talk talk talk talk. SHUT THE HELL UP ALREADY AND TEACH! I swear i think im the smartest kid at that school. -____-
How pathetic is that? Me? Smartest? Chyeah... Right! Whateva.

Those who know about my head condition: I think its getting worse. (=


My head stays in pain. Thanks Supergrands.


Umm... hmm... NEXT WEDNESDAY IS MY 1 YEAR WITH MY BABY! (= (= (= (=

Im hella juiced! We're going on a date on Sept. 12th since we cant see each other on the 9th.
Damn... 1 year tho! Went by like THAT! My longest damn relationship and its been too damn amazing. I love you.



SHOUTOUTS!

God- You my homie.

Family- I love you.

GF- You the fuckin' best.

Niggas- I miss you.

Sheryl- Update me. I have a feeling you be hiding shit from me. Dont be stupid.


WORD.




-Shingo Anaya [YZ!]